The moment I realized I was pregnant was at the gym with one of my best friend's Courtney. I was running on the treadmill, looked over my shoulder outside into the plaza at the Duffy's and thought to myself "Damn, I really could go for a quesadilla and a beer right now" As soon as … Continue reading The gym, a treadmill, Duffy’s and 2 bottles of wine.
So after my first disastrous valentine's day with Gio I decided I would no longer celebrate that day with him or anyone else for that matter. I knew that he cared for me and we were moving forward and that was enough for me. I had tried to do the traditional chocolate covered strawberries and … Continue reading Anti-Valentine’s Day from then on out………
I had decided to take a step back for a little while so I could regroup and focus on my family. We had a major transition take place for my daughter. She moved to Tampa to start her life independent of her family here on the east coast of Florida. She got herself an apartment … Continue reading It’s just weird…..
When I tell you I did whatever I could think of to land that man. I did. I pulled out all the stops, played every game, performed every trick (sexual and otherwise). I found out his favorite food and would stock my refrigerator if I knew he was coming. I cooked like a mad woman. … Continue reading Valentine’s Day….but I don’t love you…yet!
My relationship with Giovanni was probably and still is the healthiest relationship I have ever had. He is a good man. He was an excellent provider. He stepped in, when two others checked out to be a father and a role model. I will love him forever. Not only is he beautiful to look at, … Continue reading Giovanni…part 2.
Dive right in. I sit trying to piece together a clever or witty way to describe this time in my life. Dive right in, keeps repeating over and over. There is no "nice" or tidy way to describe it. It was awful. It was 100% me. All my doing. I had settled in for a … Continue reading Black Summer…poker madness.
The club, Club Safari, became MY everything. It was where I would go if I was in a good mood, to celebrate birthdays, New Year's Eve, bachlorette parties, divorce parties. It was where I would go if I was in a shitty mood and wanting to escape into a sea of people and alcohol. It … Continue reading Giovanni…. 🙂
I skipped Saturday morning and opted for today instead. I'm tired today. Emotionally exhausted. I have been pouring my heart out while pouring over these memories and it has left me somewhat vulnerable in my current life. I'm sensitive lately. I don't know if this is strictly biological due to my most recent surgery or if … Continue reading My shelf life………
For a moment, I am going to jump ahead slightly and only because I was reminded of this event in my life recently. I went to work at this lovely plastic surgery practice. It was unlike any place I had ever worked before or since. It was one of those moments in time, so special … Continue reading jumping ahead….plastic surgery
I was single again. School was winding down, kids were in a routine and I was restless. I began working out like a madman, I dove into food restrictions and ridiculous expectations of my body. I had to control something. I was going out Friday nights, Saturday nights and sometimes Sunday's. I was balancing being … Continue reading Single again….what ya know?!