Something I have never been found of. Something quite frankly that I am not good at. Something I do not practice with any regularity….until now. Now I find myself placing all my faith in patience. In all things, good and bad. Like a new found religion. It has replaced eagerness, pride, anger & disappointment. It’s a state of being that requires discipline. I am practicing patience for the very first time in my life and I am finding the rewards far out way the agonizing pace of karma. I am patiently waiting for justice to be served to those who deserve it. This has freed up my time exponentially. I barely give thought to certain individuals except during moments like this when it strikes me that I am on to a new way of thinking, or an emotion triggered by a memory that passes through on it’s way back to the rolodex that is my mind. My days are filled with love and joy and happiness. My mind is free from clutter and destructive thoughts. I am free to focus on the things that fulfill my life and that is exactly what I have been doing, spreading my time between family and friends, work and play. My purpose in this world, is exactly what I have fought and challenged since the very beginning of my conscious thought. My purpose is to be whatever I am needed to be. To give freely of my time, my friendship, my labor and my love in whatever capacity I can. I have stopped fighting this or viewing this as a negative thing and just accepted that it is MY thing. It’s what I do. I am ok with this. I am no longer searching. I no longer expect to find my great love, or a final destination. I am content with the journey. I am practicing patience…in all things, good and bad and I am happy.
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Confessions of a mad mind~ Author of A Practical Guide to Forgiveness from an Impractical Survivor and She was the Stuff of Stars, Christie Page was born in Falmouth, Massachusetts. She lived in the Nobska Point Lighthouse with her mother and father who were stationed there as a result of his service in the Coast Guard. Shortly after the family made their way to West Palm Beach, Florida where she grew up continuing her love affair with the ocean. She has two children Joshua 26 and Laura 24 and currently resides in South Florida. In 2015 Christie left her twenty year medical career to pursue her passion for writing full time and has been featured in the world’s largest mindful living publications including Chicken Soup for the Soul, elephant journal, Sivana East, Thirty on Tap and The Urban Howl. She was also a feature columnist for Controlled Chaos magazine. An active yogi, hoop dancing enthusiast and self-proclaimed whiskey chick, she is a third generation breast cancer survivor, recovering anorexic/bulimic and is on life six or seven of her nine lives. She has been homeless and sheltered, rich and poor, loved and hated and believes her experiences have lead her down a path of spiritual exploration and awakenings. Christie wishes to share her journey with others in an attempt to come to peace. She writes to clear space from the rolodex that is her muddled mind. Christie View all posts by christiepage "pando pandemonium"