and he was gone, just like that. Well, not exactly, not this time. This time I took the lead. This time I emptied the filter in my heart, the one that was all clogged up from relationships past and I started fresh and new. I decided to let emotion flow in and fill me up, whatever it was… I was going to accept, not question or deny. It started slowly at first, friendly banter, sarcasm and humor. It became nights turning into morning, night into day and night again laying out hopes and dreams, fears and disappointments. He told me not to be afraid. And so I wasn’t. I just allowed this empty vessel to be filled until I was so full that emotion spilled from the pools of my eyes. And then he was gone, just like that. I let him go, the idea of him, the reality of him and accepted the reality of me.
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Confessions of a mad mind~ Author of A Practical Guide to Forgiveness from an Impractical Survivor, Oh Go Fix Yourself and She was the Stuff of Stars, Christie Page was born in Falmouth, Massachusetts. She lived in the Nobska Point Lighthouse with her mother and father who were stationed there as a result of his service in the Coast Guard. Shortly after the family made their way to West Palm Beach, Florida where she grew up continuing her love affair with the ocean. She has two children Joshua 26 and Laura 24 and currently resides in South Florida. In 2015 Christie left her twenty year medical career to pursue her passion for writing full time and has been featured in the world’s largest mindful living publications including Chicken Soup for the Soul, elephant journal, Sivana East, Thirty on Tap and The Urban Howl. She was also a feature columnist for Controlled Chaos magazine. An active yogi, hoop dancing enthusiast and self-proclaimed whiskey chick, she is a third generation breast cancer survivor, recovering anorexic/bulimic and is on life six or seven of her nine lives. She has been homeless and sheltered, rich and poor, loved and hated and believes her experiences have lead her down a path of spiritual exploration and awakenings. Christie wishes to share her journey with others in an attempt to come to peace. She writes to clear space from the rolodex that is her muddled mind. Christie View all posts by christiepage "pando pandemonium"