I spent years reading magazine articles, books, columns, blogs and posts about men. I was desperate to understand this mysterious creature who's mannerisms, emotions and dreams were so vastly different from my own. I thought if I could figure them out, decipher their code that I would have a little more luck in my own … Continue reading What I learned about women from men…
I stopped asking "why me?" I stopped stating that life was unfair. I stopped thinking that my luck couldn't get any worse. I stopped looking at myself as a walking magnet for all things unjust and started saying... "better me". Better me to deal with the darker things that life seemed to direct my way. … Continue reading Better me
Tonight my demons will dine on the memories from my mind, they've been left there to sift and collect, aging like fine wine. Tonight I will revisit all the places I have not allowed my thoughts to wander for fear of slipping; and although that rabbit hole makes for good material, even I know there are … Continue reading Fine Wine
Ok...here goes everything. Conversation with myself after making the decision to write. .. (You want to get honest right? You want to connect to that inner part of you that censors everything, that puts pretty rose colored filters on to make YOUR truth easier for others to understand and digest? You want to live an … Continue reading Well f*ck~I’m happy
Your lies wrapped around me like a beautiful couture masterpiece. Custom designed to fit my exact dimensions and oh did I buy it... right off the rack, didn't even try it on for size. I would have done whatever it took to make it fit. I was to wear this deceit like silk, letting it spill … Continue reading open the vein~ haute couture
I can't do it, today especially, I can't always be the bigger person. I want to believe that I am this karmic creature who can rise above petty human emotions but then I realize that if I ignore that part of myself I am denying part of the human experience. So I didn't rise above … Continue reading What lies beneath~
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So after realizing that I could not give up part of my sexuality I decided to address my current situation with the partner in my life at the time. I approached gingerly at first, not knowing where he stood on the subject. It's hard when your sexual preferences aren't considered mainstream, harder still to stifle … Continue reading And so it begins…
You know that feeling when you meet someone for the first time, maybe the second time or maybe it's someone you've known for a while, but all of the sudden there is a shift in the energy around you?... and you notice the curve of his lips, that mischievous twinkle in his eyes, the way … Continue reading ~Chemistry~
