You know what I am most concerned about?…You know what’s eating away at my insides?
I feel like I am on the precipice of experiencing the one thing I have always wanted, that I have found soooo elusive, that I have coveted.
I fear that right before I achieve it…I will be gone, disappear.
I will be swallowed up by the earth and forgotten
…and the thing I needed most in my life will elude me forever.
That’s some deep shit.
That’s real talk.
That is my biggest fear in life.
To want something selfishly, that serves ONLY me
To have it laid out before me and not that IT will disappear
…but I will.