I pride myself on having thick skin. I've been through a lot, but haven't we all? That's kinda the position I take anytime I start feeling down or sorry for myself. I realized that throughout my life, with the exception of a very brief time-frame I have never really allowed myself to grieve or even … Continue reading Thick Skin
***I have never met this person in real life before but had planned our first date for a week from Sunday*** The following is a message I received after politely declining an invitation to meet up for drinks because I had already made plans with friends. While out with those friends my phone died and … Continue reading A TINDER LOVE STORY
Living with an open heart is one hell of a struggle. I am trying desperately to remain optimistic and to let go of expectation and to live without building walls around my heart so that I can experience all that this life has to offer. I don't want to be bitter or closed off. I … Continue reading The Storm.
You know, I have moments when I am doing really well. The pain in my heart is less on those days and I try to take a mental inventory of why I am doing okay or how I am managing to make it through those moments without crumbling into an emotion abyss. The only thing … Continue reading Due North
you say damaged I say beautifully reconstructed from a heart whose will to love is greater than the sum of her disappointments.
I can't do it anymore. I just can't and this time it isn't you. It really is me. I don't even know when we started this relationship. It goes back as far as I can remember and it has never been good. We've never had good times, certainly none that would justify keeping you around … Continue reading I’m breaking up with you. (an open letter)
I am doing my best to listen to my soul, my gut, that thing that tells you what you should be doing. I am trying to practice the art of letting go, of patience, of giving up expectation in exchange for peace... but man is it hard. I am having trouble right now reconciling something that … Continue reading Listening to my souls voice~
I spent my evening in the company of great strength, curled up tight in a wicker chair enjoying the warm breeze of Florida air. I sat with tears in my eyes and a tightness in my chest explaining away the pain of the last few days. I was so moved by the reprieve I was … Continue reading strength in the gentle souls
And I laid it all out there for you to see And you told me I was everything so fantastically, scarily perfect on so many levels and that was the nicest compliment I had ever received so of course, I ran with those words until they lifted and soared through my skies like a bright … Continue reading magic dragon
I didn't think it was possible for my heart to break any further than it already had. I didn't think there were tears left to shed. I didn't think that suffocating sadness could wash over me, take my breath and leave me rocking that little girl on the inside, in a desperate attempt to sooth … Continue reading