I wanted to be something. I wanted to be known for creating art. I wanted to be a choreographer. That was the childhood dream that took hold. Before that and not for the purpose of this story, I wanted to be the first female fighter pilot in the United States Air Force. This story comes full circle, that I can promise you.
I saw the movie Flashdance, way too young and I don’t even remember how it came that I was watching it, but it changed me. I didn’t know you could dance that way. I was always enrolled in ballet or jazz or an occasional tap class, but that?? whoah!
That was something altogether different and I thought maybe I could do it.
So I just goggled what year Flashdance came out and it was 1983 so that would make me 9 and I was somehow convinced I could be a stripper…yea we won’t go down that rabbit hole today.
Anyway…the point is I grew up wanting to be known. I wanted to leave my mark here. I wanted to be someone to my kids. I wanted them to be proud of me. I never cared about anyone else’s approval and I learned early to stop seeking theirs.
So now I’m this…
and this is not too freaking bad.
You might be asking yourself…
So what are you?
I’m an astronaut my friend, an astronaut indeed.
***Disclaimer I am NOT in fact an astronaut and this is a work of fiction 🙂 ***
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Author of A Practical Guide to Forgiveness from an Impractical Survivor, Oh Go Fix Yourself and She was the Stuff of Stars, Christie Page was born in Falmouth, Massachusetts. She lived in the Nobska Point Lighthouse with her mother and father who were stationed there as a result of his service in the Coast Guard. Shortly after the family made their way to West Palm Beach, Florida where she grew up continuing her love affair with the ocean. She has two children Joshua 26 and Laura 24 and currently resides in South Florida.
In 2015 Christie left her twenty year medical career to pursue her passion for writing full time and has been featured in the world’s largest mindful living publications including Chicken Soup for the Soul, elephant journal, Sivana East, Thirty on Tap and The Urban Howl. She was also a feature columnist for Controlled Chaos magazine.
An active yogi, hoop dancing enthusiast and self-proclaimed whiskey chick, she is a third generation breast cancer survivor, recovering anorexic/bulimic and is on life six or seven of her nine lives. She has been homeless and sheltered, rich and poor, loved and hated and believes her experiences have lead her down a path of spiritual exploration and awakenings. Christie wishes to share her journey with others in an attempt to come to peace. She writes to clear space from the rolodex that is her muddled mind.
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