So I'm risking everything with this post but it is so important and I am hoping more than anything to expose what this process is really like, how it feels and what it looks like when you've finally broken beyond hope. I know that it's hard to believe, it's hard to believe I've had the … Continue reading Crisis
I'm doing my thing. I'm trying to figure it all out, put the pieces of the puzzle in some order, trying to lay them all out, a cards on the table kinda thing. That thing, that's the thing I'm doing. I went back. I didn't want to. I've spent almost the entire majority of my … Continue reading Pure
I cried tonight watching the Oscars. No surprise there but it wasn't for the reason I thought I would cry. I anticipated watching Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper perform Shallow like everyone else and god did they deliver. There is something about that song, that story, that chemistry that just moves my soul. No, I … Continue reading The Oscars…
I spoke the words and I instantly choked up. It was a warning that this concept, these words I spoke needed further attention. I was describing the feeling of euphoria I felt in those first few months of meeting him. And they were euphoric. I could have never imagined that I was capable of the … Continue reading Purpose~ You are Enough~
Quite frankly not a topic I ever wanted to discuss, which is all the more reason to put it out there and let the chips fall where they may. I was pretty much forced into this conversation by a seemingly well-meaning gentleman, although the aftermath let my insides twisted and feeling like minced meat. He … Continue reading The ugly truth.
You couldn't get any deeper babe if you tried. The intensity of your gaze held me there and while normally I'd bite my lips and close my eyes to keep from crying out, I was trapped exquisitely beneath you. My hands struggling to pull you in closer, deeper. My body desperate to consume the last bits of you … Continue reading Deeper
The letter I wish I had written to myself years ago. Dear self, It is ok. All of it. Every last bit of every single thing you have ever been and ever done is ok. There is nothing that defines you. You are limitless and boundless. You are forgiven. I forgive you. For everything. For … Continue reading Letter to self