Confessions of a mad mind~ what I’ve learned by coming clean…

I started my blog in an effort to clear space from a very muttled mind. I had no real direction, no plan, no structure and no true education in the process of writing. What I did have was my truth and an ability to convey my truth through writing down my feelings, most often after …

Explanation

  To anyone and everyone, I haven't been writing lately. In fact, I haven't been doing much of anything lately and I'm trying to figure out why. I guess for a while now I've been trapped in my own head. I haven't even volunteered this latest development of my psyche to my friends...or to anyone …

Let’s get fucking real…depression is not a switch I can turn on and off at will.

My depression is not a switch I can turn on and off at will....My depression is sometimes stronger than my will, hell sometimes depression IS my will. I don't want to feel this empty hollow echoing of loneliness in my chest that drops like a metal pan on a tile floor in the middle of …

Truths

Gonna stay true to form here folks and just open a vein and start writing. Last week I accepted a position back in the medical field that I absolutely did not want to take. The only reason I went in for the interview was because one of my best friends told me they needed someone …

I made it another day

Some days, that's as good as it gets. Yesterday was one of those days where my heart was outpacing my mind and funny that the best piece of advice and encouragement came at the hand of a wonderful surgical tech that I used to work with. One who has literally seen me inside and out. …

Panic Attack

I am in the midst of a panic attack and usually I would pace myself into oblivion and let these wild thoughts race through my mind and coarse into my veins and completely take over any logic or reason that would be clinging on...but today I am trying to write through it...it's incredibly hard, it's …