Predator & Prey

We were just talking... like survivors do when we talk. Open, honest, raw and no bullshit. We've heard it all before, we don't need to hear it from each other. Strangers listening in might describe the conversations as brutal attacks, hitting one another with one truth after another, a no holds barred, verbal slug fest. …

It’s been a long time…

It’s been a long, long time since I’ve written and I mean truly written. So today I decided to speak my truths and there are so many swirling around in my mind that I’m not quite sure where to begin. I guess I’ll write you a letter and just never send it out…nothing could go …

Breakthrough

my truth today...   I miss you. More than I ever thought it possible to miss someone. I found love at a time when I wasn't looking, when I had given up hope for such things. I had resigned myself to being the third wheel, the fifth wheel and no wheel at all. So to …

If I could be anything…I would be the moon

If I could be anything, I would choose each time, to be this. Oh sure, I wear the same hat as many of you, answer to the same titles. Mom, daughter, sister, cousin, co-worker, friend. But you see on any given day I can also float between what's beneath the skin, the not so traditional, …

Tricks~A Rant from the mad mind.

Is this where we are again?? On the receiving end of yet another goodbye? Only this time we held our heart close to our chest and didn't fall, hell this time our heart was so wrapped up in our love for another that it was merely a distraction and not even a constant at that. …

Chasing the Unicorn

I gotta tell you...when I first heard the phrase "chasing the unicorn"  I thought to myself...oh lord, another label thrown out there by commitment phobic men to explain their lack of monogamy and interest in settling down; and then I thought, you know what... I'm chasing the unicorn too. I am going to jump on …

The aftermath

The aftermath of saying goodbye is a tough one, not going to lie. If I was a smoker, I'd have been through a few packs by now. If I was an eater, I would have made several trips to my favorite fast food place, which if you're keeping track, is Taco Bell. If I was …

How do you say goodbye to a part of your soul?

So instead of writing all the sorted details of the last month since reconnecting with what was the love of my life, I figured I would be brutally, heart breakingly, soul baring and share the letter I wrote to him. The following is the last letter I have written, the necessary goodbye to part of …

Wouldn’t it be nice?

Wouldn't it be nice if things lined up or worked out just once in a while? So I'll continue my story...because what else can I do? I sit here trying to practice the art of letting go and failing miserably today...I have moments of "okay" and more moments of not okay... I am not okay, …

spins madly on

I don't even know where to begin. Guess I'll just dive right in. The man that I wrote about in: open letter to the man with depression part 1. & 2. came back into my life unexpectedly. https://christiepage808.wordpress.com/2015/11/09/this-is-your-chapter-the-book-is-my-love-an-open-letter-to-the-man-with-depression/ Now here is where I will probably lose a few of you. I am a believer in …